Whoopsie!

 I didn't realize it had been so long since I'd posted. No wonder the pictures have been piling up on my computer. Things have been a bit crazy lately. Work has been insane with breakdowns and people missing or general what have you. I worked a point off end of last week, and then this week, used it on Thursday because my body was screaming bloody murder at me. I woke up and everything was still aching from the night before, from head to toe, quite literally. I could barely walk to get the dog outside for a potty run and get me some breakfast. (The zoo gets dinner right now because of the heat, instead of breakfast, so it doesn't spoil before they get it all eaten.)

I've been in a bit of a glum spell lately as well. I'm kind of bummed out by the job, working on the shop and seeing how fast I can grow the product offerings so I can draw more traffic and of course, get more sales. Work's been giving us a lot of hours, to where I've been getting overtime every week. No wonder I was so worn out and took a day off. I was just too wiped out by everything. I'll be so glad when things take off and I can leave that place. I'm absolutely MISERABLE there but nothing here is hiring at a wage I can live on, so I'm kind of stuck.

But with the shop, there is hope that things will change for the better. I know they can, it's just a matter of time and effort to see if they WILL. And they'd better, because I have absolutely NO intention of reaching the age of 62 in another 8 years and retiring from that awful nightmare of a job. It's boring as heck, there's no joy in it, and the tedium is so mind-numbing that I want to scream sometimes. Most days, I stand there crying from the misery, and nobody notices. And no, therapy wouldn't help. Already tried that and all it did was put me on pills that made me happier about being miserable. I am NOT going that route to suffer through this mess. I'm happiest at home with the zoo crew and doing whatever, and mostly working on the shop. It calms my mind and relaxes my body, all while bringing joy to my heart to see things grow. So yep, gotta keep working on it because it's my happy.

The extra day off was spent mostly sleeping to recuperate, and goodness knows, sometimes you just have to take care of yourself and devil take the hindmost to everything else. My body recovered, my mind is still messed up with knowing in a couple more days I have to return to that awful place again. You know it's bad when you literally count the hours each shift until you are done. When you cry going in because it leaves you so psychologically damaged, while your there for same, and then on the way home in relief that it's over for another day. Looking on the bright side doesn't really help much. My biggest relief comes from new designs going up in the store on new products so I can build it out and eventually end the misery.

Everything else is pretty much the same. Paid off the TV a few weeks back, and only about six more months to go and my washer and dryer will be paid off as well. The main bills for the month are paid so there's just the washer/dryer and my student loans and my credit card on a weekly basis for bills, plus gas and groceries. Things are slowly looking up financially, and get better a bit at a time. That helps the misery a bit, too, you know. Knowing that bills are being paid off a little at a time. It isn't much but every bit helps.

So it's time for pictures and then I need some sleep at it's my bedtime here on second shift life. tomorrow is groceries and doing my laundry and cleaning the cat box. Oddly, that's basically all the chores this weekend indoors. I do need to get out and mow as it's getting a bit shaggy, but if it's in the 90s again, it's going to have to wait. I'm not killing myself over making the grass look pretty.